Basketball, gymnastics, mom's social life, basketball, gymnastics, mom's social life...it's a vicious circle but it's our life.
Last weekend, we played basketball in Van Meter. Allyson's team got demolished, and we forfeited Emily's 6th grade game because of the street ball being played on the court. This weekend, we played at our home gym against Panora. Allyson's team won and Emily's team got killed. They try so hard, but it's never enough......3 more weeks of regular play and the JY Classic and we'll be able to call this season good :) I so can't wait....horrible, right??
I feel like after passing the one year mark, a weight has been lifted from my shoulders...I feel like I can be the me I want to be. I'm happy and I don't feel bad about it or care what other people think of the me I'm being....the only thing that matters is that I'm happy and as long as I'm happy, the girls are happy and as long as the girls are happy....life is good. We celebrate J every day, talking about him makes us stronger. He was such a large influence in all 3 of our lives, to not remember something of him everyday would be like he never existed. He's all around us and pushing us to move on, be happy, live life like he did, BIG. That's what we're doing and I feel like he's nothing but happy for us, for me.
We're still here, we're not going anywhere and we'll never forget....but we can't live in the past, to do that would be to dismiss everything J was. We won't do it....we miss him, yes, will that bring him back, no...we've accepted this.
Thanks for checking in.....
L
2 comments:
keep on celebrating JY! and glad to hear that life can be good again and that you can breathe and look ahead again. Praise the Lord.
I second what Nance said AND what you said especially about NOT living in the past and and living BIG as jy would want and enjoying life again ---and yes this does not take away from your love and who he was . Proud of you three !!! (((HUGS)))) Aunt Deb
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