One more first to be faced today. It's not as hard as I thought it might be...so I'm thankful for that.
The girls and I are going to mom and dad's for dinner, just us and them. Will it be weird without J sitting at the table eating his way thru anything placed in front of him? Yes, but it will be ok. Since he had recently taken up cooking, I'm sure he would have contributed something from his newly found love. I'll miss that. I'll also miss him flipping me shit about scouring the black Friday ads looking for the best deal on something I just HAD to HAVE...or something I thought the girls just HAD to HAVE. This day had always been about one thing for J, being with family.
Tonight Shan and I, based on what is found in the ads today, will be mapping out our Friday shopping route...no sleeping for us tonight as we are one of those crazy asses who has to be first in line for the next best thing, whatever that is. We'll sit at her kitchen table with 4 Registers full of ads making a list and checking it twice, then we'll head to Des Moines and meet my sis and KD for breakfast and then head out to our first destination. It's been a tradition for Shana and I for 10 years now...One that I look forward to every year. Black Friday 2008, J's list was bigger than mine and all that was on his list were kitchen appliances...makes me laugh every time I think about bringing all his "presents" home and watching him open them. He was giddy, and that in itself is down right hilarious to me....
I am so VERY thankful for my family and friends (old and new). Thank you for being there when I've needed you and, yes, even when I didn't. Thank you for your verbal and silent support and for loving me unconditionally even in my darkest, most hateful hours. I will never verbally be able to express what's in my heart, but I hope when you read this you feel my love and gratitude. I wouldn't be who I am nor where I'm at without you.....
We're gonna make it....I feel it in my heart.
L
3 comments:
Happy Thanksgiving Lesa and girls
I am thankful for how far you and the girls have come and yes you will make it. I too am thankful for family.
I thought I should tell you I had a dream J and Grandma Austin were making noodles--makes sense now that I know cooking was his new pasion.
Have a nice quiet day with your family---tell your Mom and Dad hi and happy Thanksgiving for me too
Is Julie in Minnesota--she and I discovered where they go is about 1 hr away from Brainerd--now we figure that out--lol
Love Aunt Deb
Dear Lesa, Estar and Cakes
I am Thankful because you are Thankful Lesa. We have trod a road of pain and tears for almost a year now and to find Thankfulness at this fork in the road is truly something to be thankful for. Yes..Dear Lesa you will make it.. I feel it in my heart too. In almost a year now of "the last time" and "the first time" since, I am Thankful for the Blessing Jeff was in our Lives. I am Thankful for the Blessing you and the girls are in our lives. You are forever in my heart and I know Jeff continues to watch over us from his "Shining Star". Have a Blessed Thanksgiving Lesa and girls. I love you so much, Deb
Hope it was "mission accomplished" this morning as you hit Black Friday. Or that you atleast at fun running the gauntlet.
Me? no way. I stayed far away. I'll do my shopping in a more leisurely fashion.
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