Random...

I listen to all sorts of music from naughty rap to country to 80's hair bands to Hannah Montana....I'm always searching for the perfect song to mirror whatever mood I'm in at that moment. In my world, moments sometimes last longer than what the word moment means..Currently, my mood is melancholy or just going thru the motions or sometimes just trying to be what people think I should be when on the inside I'm out of control...I mean, I'm not REALLY out of control, I just feel like it sometimes. And when I say out of control, I just mean I'm not the me I was 6 months ago. I'm sure that makes abso-f'n-lutely no sense whatsoever, but there it is. So, when I stumbled across this song (by Kelly Clarkson) in my current moment that started about 3 weeks ago, I dubbed it my new favorite poor me song. LOL, because I'm into self pity for sure :) It doesn't mean anything in particular except for all of the emotions I'm going thru - you know the standard love/hate/anger. But really, I think I like it more for the ending oh and the fact that I have hazel eyes.

Behind these hazel eyes

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything it felt so right
Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No I cant sleep
Im barely hanging on

(Chorus)
Here I am
Once again
Im torn into pieces
Cant deny it
Cant pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you wont get to see the tears I cry
Behind these Hazel eyes

I told you Everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright for once in my life
Now all thats left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside
Cause I cant breathe
No I cant sleep
Im barley hangin on

(Chorus)
Here I am
Once again
Im torn into pieces
Cant deny it
Cant pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you wont get to see the tears I cry
Behind these Hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Just seeing you it kills me now
No I dont cry
On the outside anymore

Here I am
Once again
Im torn into pieces
Cant deny it
Cant pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you wont get to see the tears I cry
Behind these Hazel eyes

Maybe it sounds goofy to you, but I listen to this song (and Halo, if you haven't heard that song, you need to go out and get it for your iPod) like a million times a day and in a way it makes me stronger, so I say whatever works, right?? Right.

Thanks for checking in....

L