So, J's headstone got set today....it's amazing.
Because I haven't been to the cemetery since the funeral (drive by's don't count), I called in reinforcements in the form of JY's BF. Thank god he was there because I was a mess. He pulled up, gave me a couple of minutes to sit and cry by myself while he went out and had a few words with J. I composed myself, got out of the car, walked across the lawn bawling, met him half way and completely fell apart.
I was sad, mad and very pissy all at the same time. The headstone is so final.....it's like saying good bye to my best friend/lover/father of my children all over again. Just when I think I'll never shed another tear, 1500 more fall. When does the pain end?
Thanks for checking in......
L
3 comments:
I love juu sister!
Love you Lesa. Keep hanging in there. I'm sure that had to be incredibly tough today. It will get better. I promise. Sasha
it is beautiful; a fitting tribute.
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