On my way home from work. It sparked a memory which sparked a missing so deep and painful that I had to call my sister to make it all better....I needed a hug. What a girl like thing to do and so VERY unlike me.
I knew December would be hard....Christmas was J's favorite holiday, he went all out; gifts, lights, the tree, the stockings and bitched about it all....he was the spirit of Christmas in our house and right now, our house has no Christmas spirit.
We get thru Christmas, then it's the day....I can't believe we've almost hit the one year mark. I can't believe all that's happened in one year. I can't believe all that he's missed. I can't believe what a huge presence we've lost in our lives, the one that would ALWAYS be here, the one that we took for granted.
Every minute of every day that has gone by, he is missed in one capacity or another, I don't think anyone else can grasp that.....unless something of this magnitude has happened to you. If I've learned nothing else in the last year, tell the one's you love that you love them, don't make them wonder.....
Thanks for checking in.
L
2 comments:
Lesa, it has happened to a lot of us . . . that great loss -- a loss of a magnitude beyond measuring.
A sister, a spouse, a parent, a best friend. Many of us have had that loss. We can all share such a loss. But we all (seemingly) have to mourn on our own . . . or so it seems.
True enough Nancy.
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