So the girls and I failed at the memory a day thing. When I thought it up I thought...no big whoop, I have a million and one memories of J. What I didn't factor in was how hard remembering would be for all of us.
This week has been a tough one. I've cried more than I want to tell you, I've been angry more than I want to admit...but I've hugged the life I have left more than I ever have in the last few months.
I miss J, I wish he was here everyday, every second, for every moment he's missing. I wish he was here to carry some of the burden I carry, to be my whipping boy for my complaints, to listen to my fears and to hear his standard, "things will be ok babe".
I miss J and I know I'm far from the only one that does...
Happy Birthday J.
L
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My Dear Lesa,
I want to Thank You, Cakes and Estar from the bottom of my heart for all your Memories you have posted this month. I understand You when you say how hard remembering is for you and the girls. I commend you for your tributes to Jeff. It is so hard to go to a place in your heart that was so happy, but today is still hurting. People say remembering is good, and it is, but when you remember a memory that you want back so desperately, it can cut into your heart until it makes it feel raw. That's the hard part..the part that brings on the tears. I take the tears with the laughter and I will never be able to Thank you enough for all the energy and Love you and the girls poured into your Memories. I Love you and the girls so very much forever and for always. Deb
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