And the hurt is the same, maybe worse.....I haven't decided. The past 6 days have been overwhelming, busy and filled with tears. Just when I thought I'd make it thru just ONE day without tears the fountain starts flowing and I'm a blubbering mess.
I'm still not staying back at the house...maybe we'll be back there tomorrow night?? Not sure. I'd like to think that I can deal with it for the girls, but I don't know. Guess I won't know until we're there. That song, "don't know whatcha got til it's gone", keeps running thru my head and heart. It's true, you just don't.
I'm also saddened by a couple of rumors that have been floating thru the town I live in. Actually, I'm hurt more than words at these things. I know the truth, I know what happened and anything else is garbage. So, I would hope that whoever is spreading vial sh*t about what happened, may you rot in hell, jus sayin'. I may be down, but I'm not out.
JY was my best friend, the love of my life and my biggest heart ache. We made one hell of a team and I will forever grieve for him.
L
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It will get better.....my thoughts are with you and your daughters. There are no words to say that will help....just know that there are lots of people out there that hold you and the girls in their hearts.
Jodi's mom....Sherry
Whose ass do I need to kick honey?? Cuz I will...believe dat!! Dont let the bitches get you down sister, they will wake up tomorrow the same bitter people while the rest of the world grows. Much love to you still and always!
j
I'm with Jodi. I don't know her, but I like the way she thinks.
I know some people that know some people... if you know what I mean. We can shut them up for good ;)
Seriously though. It is very sad, but you know it's inevitable in St. C or any of those small towns nearby. Everyone knows the truth, they just think it's cool to gossip.
I'm sure that doesn't make you feel any better though.
The worst thing that could happen is if those little girls hear that stuff. Let's all pray they don't.
We love you Lesa Hope!
Lesa let your GRUMPY OLd Aunt Debbie go after them!!!!I agree with Jared ... there is always gossip--but we don't want the girls to hear it ,,GRRR.
I thought of you a lot today because now that the activity has quieted down ---I think that would be even harder.Take your time going back home and do things at your own pace. Don't worry about what people say. You Know we are here for you!! Love ya ESA HOpe( get it right Jared)
and from cousin Nancy: My mother always said it doesn't matter what others think as long as you know the truth. So don't worry about the rumors and the garbage. Pettiness -- it comes from insecure people with small minds.
It will be hard to go home but you'll know when the time is right for you or for your daughters. And if the time is right for your daughters, you'll find the strength and courage. God willing. And God Bless.
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