I have a feeling that if I keep writing about how depressed I am, no one will stop by and visit. So, I'm going to start looking for the good in my life and writing about it....maybe tomorrow.
Today the girls, mom, dad and myself went over to Winterset for a wrestling meet that Beau and Brayden were in. I guess I wasn't thinking that there was a good possibility that we could be there the entire day, so when we rolled in at 12p and the meet was behind 1/2 hour I told dad I should have drove separate. Dad took the girls and I home at 2p so the girls could finish up their homework and make it to gymnastics at 5p.
From 5p-7p I sat in the house, by myself and just stared at the walls. I mean really, our Sunday's consisted of laying on the couch watching TV getting up only to snack on something. Just one more reminder of being alone now....
I went to the gym to pick the girls up and while sitting in my car I realized that in the 14+ years of marriage, JY and I have only spent a handful of days apart and right now is the longest. I'm just sick in my heart over it.
We're still squatters at mom and dad's, we only go home to get clothes for the next day, the girls are going to school tomorrow and I'm not heading back to work until Thursday. Maybe by then we'll be waking up in our own house....it's nice to have goals, huh?
Thanks for checking in.
L
2 comments:
Lesa-Hang in there. It looks like you are heading in the right direction by taking baby steps. I'm thinking of you everyday. Love ya,
Sasha
Lesa--I'm glad you are able to write down how you are really feeling!!We don't expect all laughs and giggles right now. You are doing fine.Just keep taking those baby steps.and I'll try not to act like a ninnyhammer!!! love Aunt Debbie
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