Today the kids had a 2 hour delay so they slept in and I was up at 7a ready to start the day. I let the girls sleep until 830a and had to shake them both awake, prod them to get dressed, to eat breakfast and to brush their hair and teeth - that was fun times. I dropped them off at the school bus and headed home home to take a shower and get ready for the day.
Mom and I did a few things that I've been putting off, like paying my water bill, faxing a death cert to my mortgage company, paying the rest of the state taxes, and picking up the jersey's I've had ordered forever. I just hadn't wanted to deal with that until I knew I could put it off no longer. So, I'm glad that's all done. I still have a few more things to do, but I can put those things off until Monday, right?
We made it to the basketball games tonight. I walked in to all eyes on me with my entourage following - thanks mom, dad, Julie, Travis and kids for coming with us. The girls made quick work of putting the white ribbons on - which simply said 'young's n r hearts'. It was nice to see the gymnastics team wearing them and a few of the parents wearing them too. I cried a little, thinking once again JY is missing this. Emily and Allyson did fantastic!! Their tumbling skills brought tears to my eyes. Jebus, I am so stinkin' proud of those girls. I hid and they were out there for all the gym to see, they are amazing.
Another piece of information I found out tonight is that the HS girls basketball team have all been wearing gold and black in their shoe laces for JY and I noticed that every one of the HS boys basketball team have a black stripe on their jerseys. See JY, how many people you touched, how many people loved you? It wasn't just me....altho I love you most....
Tonight is the first night back at the house and I am not alone. Mom, Julie and her kids are all here. We're having a slumber party of sorts. It's not that bad being here, staying here or even hanging out in the computer room where JY and I spent a large part of our time together. If I listen close enough, I can hear him b*tching about something someone said on the Jim Rome show that he faithfully listened to every night, or watching last years basketball tapes or asking 'what do you want to listen to tonight babes'. It stings, but it's ok...or as ok as it can be right now.
Thank you to all of my family and friends who visit me here, post comments to let me know you have visited and listened, share my pain, and listen to me ramble on and on. Your support and encouraging words are picking me up since I've fallen...well that and JY's voice in my head telling me to pull it together babes :) I miss him.....
L
3 comments:
Les,I knew you would make it though last night. That's so special that the whole gang came with you. That rocks! I'm so glad that you are making your way back in the house & how cool to have a slumber party. I think if it's ok with you, I would like to come & do that sometime soon. Bring Mad dog & let the girls bound. Ok, love you & I will write you soon. Sasha
Lesa
Hang in there girl, as you said each day it will get better and then you will have a bad day and that is ok. I pray that God is with you and is helping you get through this unfair thing. Wish I was there to give you a hug. I think that it is great that you are able to write about your feelings. I did not know that the Austin women had such a hard time making decisions.
Love to you and your family
Becki
You come from wise folks. A very good idea . . . the slumber party.
Bless your Mom and Sister for helping you through the "next" step. They'll always be there for you.
And, oh, yeah, you'll miss him. You'll miss JY . . . naturally.
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